Yesterday was the first time, since the accident I felt
pain. It actually started Saturday afternoon, after eight texts and one whole
second my heart hit the floor and shattered on the ground. I mustered the
strength to get through the day, but keeping in my emotional pain turned it
into physical pain.
My healing bruises throbbed with pain, my tender neck and
back were no longer just tender they were painful, so painful it hurt to have
my cotton t-shirt touching them. My legs, knee, ankle and feet screamed with
pain, so bad I thought I was going to pass out. It wasn’t a lack of pain meds, I’d
taken my dosage, even a little extra, and it still hurt.
After the grueling day a good friend of mine called me and
said lets go get some pizza, maybe a beer to and a movie. As soon as I heard
his voice the pain was gone. Knowing that everything I had suffered through was
only temporary and that in the end I still have people who care in my life made
the pain subside.
In the end yes I did lose my best friend, a love that I’ll
never feel again, and maybe the ability to give my heart to someone else.
But in the end, I didn’t lose everything, because
eventually there will be another best friend and there will be another one to
love. In the end I’ll be happy because it’s the only choice I have.
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